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Instagram Trade

FILTER THIS
FILTER THAT

WHY ARE THERE FILTERS TO CONCEAL AND WHY DOES SOCIAL MEDIA MAKE LIFE NOT REALLY FEEL REAL.

FILTER THIS, FILTER THAT
MY FAVORITE FILTER MAKES MY INSECURITY GO AWAY TILL I LOOK IN THE MIRROR THEN ITS ALL THE SAME

COMPARING MYSELF TO OTHERS IS A RECIPE FOR DISASTER BUT EACH TIME I GET ON IM SEEING THATS WHAT IM AFTER


LONG HAIR, NICE BODY, PERFECT FACE
INSTAGRAM MAKES PERFECTION FEEL REAL NEAR EVEN IF ITS ONLY DIGITALLY MADE
AND IM EXHAUSTED OF PLAYING THIS SAME MENTAL GAME, BUT ITS UNCONSCIOUS BECAUSE THATS THE NAME OF THE INSTAGRAM TRADE

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Labels

They gon label it this

They gon label it that

They gon label it everything but facts

Ima tell you what it is also tell you what it aint

The truth is none of you know my fate.

Projections of who you think i am

Very cute but im not a fan

Easiest way to get blocked

If you didnt know, i dont stop.

@nocturnalxo

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nocturnalxo poetry

Fragile

i come in peace

With good intentions as the masterpiece i am

I come with an abundance of love

Ready to pour into your cup

But dont hurt me, im fragile

And dont play me cus i just cant handle

When things arent what they seem

Im a what you see is what you get type

So when things become a mirage

And when the hate has now camouflaged

My fragility turns into strength

Because i take that pain and i go on to paint it into these words

And thats where my fragility becomes my biggest asset. My greatest strength.

My ability to fix myself up after every fall

Every broken piece, i lost them all

And still i am.

@nocturnalxo

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nocturnalxo poetry

Heartbreak Hotel

They say things get better with time

But ima sip on this wine till it gets better in my mind

They say things get better when you work

But i just wanna lay in bed all day like clockwork

Heartbreak hotel

The desk clerk knows me so well

Heartbreak hotel

It feels like someone casted a spell

A spell that keeps me locked in this hotel

The way my heart is in critical condition

may sound dramatic but there were barely any intermissions

from abuse to betrayal to death

These last 5 years have put me to the test

But i see an opening of strength

Where i take my power back and go the length

My past doesn’t determine my future

so i’m learning as i go

And this hotel isn’t the way to go

So this is my last stay

Starting today the focus is on me

Because thats how it should be

And i wont have any more stays as long as i stay true to the one person who’s never broken my heart

@nocturnalxo

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nocturnalxo poetry

Deranged

Feeling like i need you to save me

Hanging on the edge, im feeling so crazy

Deranged deranged deranged

Its strange the way it rains

Once things don’t go your way

Wont stop till it has changed

In ways i can’t explain

Maybe one day things will get better

Look outside, theres such great weather

Maybe one day my mindset will switch

And realize all the beauty inside of this

World so full of chances

World we often take for granted

Deranged deranged deranged

Its strange the way it rains

I try my best to switch lanes

And look at the brighter side of things

@nocturnalxo