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Haunted

Im haunted by my thoughts of you

I have no idea what im supposed to do

My memories get vivid and it dilutes me to

Negative thinking and depressive moods

I know that everything is alright

But the flashbacks get vivid especially at night

I know its just my mind

But i wish i knew how to calm it at times.

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Message to my followers!

Hi! Its me nocturnalxo and im going to let you guys know that this website isnt staying up forever. I plan to close it around December after a year is up. I plan on writing a book that includes poetry and fiction one day hopefully soon! So to keep up with my writings i think you guys should follow me on instagram @nocturnalxo And if you want to contact me my personal email is kcabral91@gmail.com

Thanks for tuning in , its been fun but i have too much talent to keep it on a blog forever! Hope you guys understand ❤

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If only

If only i was a healer who could magically heal with my hands

Id take away all your pain

Id even have you get up and dance

If only i was an angel who could have told you it was coming

I would have told you and id make sure it wouldnt become your shortcoming

If only i was a time traveler that could travel to the past

Id cherish those moments, id make them all last

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Falls on me

It all falls on me

Just how you said it wouldnt be

Even tho its not entirely

It still all falls on me

Even though you may catch a thing or two

At the end all of that residue

Falls to my emotions and my mental

It all falls on me

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Unconditional Love

From your strongest to your weakest

Ive seen you when you hit your peak and

I dont love you any less

For the time you were down

Thats why i know now

That i know love

From its smiles to its frowns

my love for you never broke in two

And even on the days when you would poke me to

erupt into flames

The love still remains

Family ties hold weight

But even if we weren’t blood related

I know life would still have had us fated

To love one another

What is love?

What is unconditional love?

It is us, it is the upbringing of trust.

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Distractions

Distractions

Truth is i don’t feel well

Sleeping in your bed at night gives me chills

Where are you? Will you ever wake up?

I wish i could hug you and tell you to not let up

When we spoke on the phone you opened your eyes

As if my voice brought you back

Much to my surprise

I cant think too much about it because it ruins my mood

So i distract myself so that i don’t think of you.

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An Ode To My Great Aunt

Its all hitting me at once

If i knew that was the last time i was going to see you

I would have hugged you harder and reassured my love had only gotten stronger

Even when the disease in your brain took my person away

I never forgot that shred of you that still remained, That shred of you that would take me to the park to play games

As a youngin but now id be frontin’ If i told you i cried when i heard the news

Because now as the decision to pull the plug comes closer

The tears in my eyes seem to flow with more force so

Yeah, Its all hitting me at once.

I prayed and prayed for your well state

From the minute you were diagnosed back in the 7th grade and we took you in to give you a place to stay

But i told God that this life for you is misery

Imagine if you ended up losing your memory

And now i regret it because i feel guilty like it was because of me

Like if i was in that lobby maybe i could have caught you

You told me your time was coming but i lacked to take it seriously

Your Dementia and Alzheimer’s would make you say anything

But i just want you to know that i just want your soul to glow and grow

And if you’ve reached past this mortal humanly ground than i understand if you have to go

Although i wish i could keep you around it still feels selfish somehow

90 summers you’ve lived

so safe travels if you end up with kin in the sky and tell them all that the kid said hi.

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Loveeeeee Poem

It felt good

Just to be free

To light trees

And inhale under the covers until the clock hit 3

A sweet escape

How deep the ties were made

Traveling a total of 6 hours to much dismay

But i dont care about what the people say

When im around you all my fears tend to go away

They turn to gray

An astonishing array

And the fantasies seem to fall in place

With reality

And i almost feel like im stuck in gravity

But i know that this odyssey is going to be significant for me

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20s Bluez

Floating away

drifting in space

Where is my place in this world

Thrown into this brand new place

Fast paced and it dont wait for nobody

Left or right?

Yes or no?

Stop or go?

It all seems real easy when you watch it on them shows

Till you look in the mirror

Ask yourself when your path will become clearer

Through the rain and the daze of steering through the pain and the things that weigh us down

Sooner or later we will all find our ways

Don’t fret or let it sweat you

Life is a gift and thats something that we all happen to forget too

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Insomnia

I aint rest

I aint sleep

Im functioning off 2 hours of sleep

Here i am

Now im not

Im traveling through different realms in my mind

The bags under my eyes look real nice to me

The night sky makes me feel so free

Sleeping during the day

Awake during the night

Nocturnal is what i am, i cannot deny

Tried to fight it

Tried to fix it

But here we are, there is no listening

Goodness gracious, here we are again

Its just like i cant get out my head

Darkness comes and takes me whole at night

Oh my

Oh my

Insomnias got my mind

All night

All night

Insomnia

Has got a hold of my mind

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