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Memories

now i have just memories of you and me

only pieces of how we used to be

I miss you terribly

And the thought of never seeing you again

It’s fucking with my head

It’s fucking with my heart

Quite frankly its tearing me apart.

You were my rock,

You were my heart

I don’t remember what life was like when we were apart

I dont remember what it was like to not hear you speak or call out my name regularly

For the phone or the remote or even a glass of water

And now without your voice the house just sounds much quieter

I miss you deeply and wish this was all just a dream i wish you didn’t just become a memory because life with out you is harder than it seems

I wish i can see you and wake up from this nightmare but i know you wouldn’t want me to dwell and you would just want me to take care

Want me to cherish the memories that we shared and stay strong for family, try and help them bear.

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Changing The Tone Of My Website

Hey everyone, so for the past year i’ve just been blogging my poetry and i still want to every now and then but i also want to focus more on actual blog posts and short stories. Short stories so that i can work on and eventually perfect my fiction writing craft. So just giving you all an update, i plan on publishing a poetry book soon so look out for that. Thank you all for supporting this regular degular imperfect shorty from the bronx. One love. ❤

-nocturnalxo 😉

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Emma

I see the morning sky and i think of you at times when im lonely and to myself

Memories come to my mind since it hasn’t been much time since you left to paradise

And i cry because i miss you but also because i wish i was with you

And ill be mourning forever because the house has bad weather since you’ve been gone

Silent storms take on new forms to further try to numb my emotions

But no matter how much i cope in ways that should leave me numb im still always back to square one

I dont know what else to say that hasn’t already been said

I miss you and i wish i could see you again

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Message to my followers!

Hi! Its me nocturnalxo and im going to let you guys know that this website isnt staying up forever. I plan to close it around December after a year is up. I plan on writing a book that includes poetry and fiction one day hopefully soon! So to keep up with my writings i think you guys should follow me on instagram @nocturnalxo And if you want to contact me my personal email is kcabral91@gmail.com

Thanks for tuning in , its been fun but i have too much talent to keep it on a blog forever! Hope you guys understand ❤

@nocturnalxo

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From Time

I dont know why it weighs on me heavy

Time has passed but i still feel so sweaty

When i think about you

When i think about us

I dont know about you

But i wish there was still an “us”

Deep down

Reconciliation passes through my mind like a halt at a bus stop

i know that our chapter is locked and sealed

Thrown In the past and covered with dirt and grass

But how come when i think of you my heart starts to peel

The core starts to shine

Are you sure you dont think of me from time to time?

If not then fine

I get it i cant be the one with every guy

But you

You left your mark

As the years past i dont think ill ever forget the spark

I want to let this go badly

But my heart says to look back ever so fondly

Its not healthy

So im ending this toxic fantasy

And with doing that

Hopefully i step back into reality

-nocturnalxo

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Incognito

‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬
‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬
‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬
‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬
‪To not take another bite ‬
‪Expecting something sweet ‬
‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise. ‬-nocturnalxo

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Pink Cloudz

Poetic rhymes to pass the time

Passion flows as the record beholds

Symphonies that speak to me

My inspiration singing through

The muse to it all is you

Pink clouds

Share a picture about

Love

The one we all desire

The one that takes us higher

The image of you painted in the sky

A kind of image only God can create this fine

And still i stare

Still i continue to breathe the blessed air

Of hope and prosperity

Its all beautiful

Its all what it’s meant to be

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Tupac Amaru Shakur

Since a child i’ve looked up to you

your essence of charisma is what made me fall in love too

Although taboo and a little out of the ordinary

Your songs would help guide me, it is still something very extraordinary

Your words would show me to much wisdom at such a young age

You inspired me to be more than just one page

You was a deep complex dude

I could relate so much to you

Just a kind of vibe only you can provide

And i feel your heart because it feels just like mine

Although i wish you could be here

i understand that this place caused you way too many tears

So i say hello from the other side

I know you with afeni going on your joyride

To thugz mansion the place that you reside

doing your job as an angel

Just know every time i pray i say your name

Because you helped mold me

And forever in the highest regards

Thats how i will hold thee

@nocturnalxo

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Like a Cat

Nocturnal like a cat

Im fertile with my raps

A turtle is how i move

Slow and steady with the groove

Still i know that i cant take too long

Life waits for nobody

Same old song

But opportunity knocks on my door

I just have to stack up at the book store

Study study study

Seems lame when you’re young until you get hungry

And then its the only direction

Dont put all your eggs in one basket

Especially if you cant handle rejection

Life gets deep but i can go deeper

You wont see until you get put in that sleeper

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I

I love myself enough

To know when enough is enough

I love myself so much

That i cant deal with the same old tired stuff

I love myself enough to know

That i am worth much more than heartbreak and scorn

I love myself enough to leave situations that always end up leaving me torn

I love myself so much so i am my number 1 pick

Im on the top of my list and nothing you say can stop this

I love myself enough to stay on my grind

And pick myself up and dust myself off time after time

I love myself so much, i really am a divine.

@nocturnalxo