I stay vulnerable
And its noticeable
I Wear my heart on my sleeve
Have my laundry in the streets
Dirty it seems
Give it up for peace
Since it seems to decrease
The never ending shame that used to eat me
So here i am
Transparent as ever and
I wouldnt want it any other way
Because this is my spirit
It came to lift weights
Head pounding
Heart racing
It feels like
This isnt real.
Shadows dancing
Voices making me feel like i’ve made a deal
Like the air has been laced
And my hand is to my heart
im feeling the bass
Its Beating like drums that wont stop
Dissociation has taken over again and this time it brought locks
Am i dreaming? Did you hear that?
I dont know anymore, i just want my head back.
-@nocturnal
Gotta catch my breath
Dont make the wrong step
The path to your destiny awaits
But first you gotta stop runnin, take a break.
When you look in the mirror
Do you like what you see or would you rather pull a trigger?
Look into your eyes
Are you really as bad as you depict yourself in your own mind?
Look into your eyes
Are you really content in living in a castle of lies?
Look into your heart.
Stop running you’ve reached a dead end,
Here is your brand new start.
This used to be my time
Nocturnal rhymes
Used to be the vibe
Used to be until i found out it was killin me
Used to be until i found out what was encrypted in me
Used to be
Till i saw the magic formed against me
Used to be
But now i know that this is destiny
Now i know that this is meant to be
Used to be, until i understood divine testimony
Used to be, when i didn’t really understand me
Used to be, but now i do believe in me.
Used to be, but now i dont need thee
Post to be, everything i ever dreamed of
Post to be, i believe in God and me
Post to be, love and divinity
Post to be, understanding the faults in me
Always be learning and growing C.
I’m not going to scream
I’m not going to cry
I’m going to continue to take things one step at a time
I’m not going to freak out
Anxiety is on its way out
And all I can really say is I do wanna scream and shout! But out of happiness!
After all these years I realized my purpose and i was just masking it
Lost in the sauce of who you thought I was
Whole time I really did have it all along
HOPE
Never lose hope
It may seem cloudy right now but never grab that rope
For life has beauties that we need to experience
It’s not filled with pain
Just heavy but we must maintain
And we must stay sane
In times where we are targeted for our brains
Just a little poetic justice
I dont know about you but i hope you can trust it
As i listen to D nice and ?uest love mix it up
You know how i feel so go out and spread some love
Sometimes the reflection can be painful
Sometimes we take things on because we are made to
Sometimes peace of mind is all we need
To know that things will be fine in the in between
Sometimes we react off instinct
Sometimes our dreams do die because we arent listening
Sometimes it hurts to look
But not this time because I’m giving it all it took
Most times the wrong people cling
To the message and hold on to it with bling
To talk is to walk
If i don’t walk the walk how can I talk the talk
If I don’t see the problem
How can I be the solution
I guess that’s the beauty of mystery
Mystery because we are all bruising
To smile through the pain and endure the rain
Means to keep the mirror feeling sane
To meditate not medicate might be my generations biggest struggle
If i gotta be the poster child just know they will end up
charging me with double
But im a soldier i was made from the rubble
Yet my heart beats fast so i gotta slow it down or else im stubble
Same trials, different cell
Same struggle, different hell
Same heart, different wells
Karma comes and gets it still
Protect the hearts who beat through the stain
And smile through the pain
Living life insane but its normal in the rain
Maybe I know too much
Maybe I know too little
But what I really know is that this time was meant to grow like I’m on a riddle
Not working for the people who represent hate
Because I just really can not relate
Keep looking I’ll send it right back to you
Do you really wanna get this started boo?
Your eyes they never lie do they
I’ve seen you crying
I’ve been hearing it loud for 2 days
I wanna understand I want to see who’s behind that mask
I wanna see but maybe it is meant to be free
For open interpretation
We grasping for hope because this life looks so fake and
I wanna complain I really do but I think I found the real you
Bleeding Heart
My heart bleeds for the love that I know is unrequited
It’s crazy to feel but fuck it I am ignited
To let go of what I cannot control is my mission
Because if I don’t I start to lose my vision
To remember is something I hope never leaves
I want to remember what it feels like to breathe
To let you go it might seem very selfish
But I had to do it for me
It’s apart of my lesson
Nocturnal Reflection 