Nocturnal Reflection

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  • Heartbreak Hotel

    April 27, 2021 by

    They say things get better with time But ima sip on this wine till it gets better in my mind They say things get better when you work But i just wanna lay in bed all day like clockwork Heartbreak hotel The desk clerk knows me so well Heartbreak hotel It feels like someone casted… Read more

  • Deranged

    April 27, 2021 by

    Feeling like i need you to save me Hanging on the edge, im feeling so crazy Deranged deranged deranged Its strange the way it rains Once things don’t go your way Wont stop till it has changed In ways i can’t explain Maybe one day things will get better Look outside, theres such great weather… Read more

  • Dysfunctional Part 1/2

    March 1, 2021 by

    DISCLAIMER: 100% fiction! all from my imagination not even realistic fiction just fiction! enjoy. The room felt tense, silence making the most sound as the results await. Layla took a glance at Richard who’s face had already started to drop. Richard kept pacing up and down the hallways just waiting for the doctor to come… Read more

  • (W)hole

    February 8, 2021 by

    I don’t know what i can say to make the pain go away I dont know how i can act that will distract me from the fact That since you’ve been gone its hard to move on Since you have left the after effects is eating me to death I try to hold it in… Read more

  • Still Grieving

    February 8, 2021 by

    It’s been kind of hard for me to follow through with my creations, if I can be transparent. I have this story I’ve been writing and I don’t really have the motivation to pull through. I know I will get it done but I’m the type of person that I can be hard on myself,… Read more

  • Mama Patria

    January 8, 2021 by

    my second mother my right when I’m wrong my good conscious because yours was so strong so much of me i got from you because you were just another mother to me too Raising me like you raised your own because that was just you That motherly feeling ran in your bones i lived with… Read more

  • Memories

    December 30, 2020 by

    now i have just memories of you and me only pieces of how we used to be I miss you terribly And the thought of never seeing you again It’s fucking with my head It’s fucking with my heart Quite frankly its tearing me apart. You were my rock, You were my heart I don’t… Read more

  • Grief.

    December 30, 2020 by

    Damn 2020, That was way harsh. I have to really just blog this one out because this year has really been the worst. Worse than the year my life got derailed which is saying a lot. Lets start with the fact that personally, i never actually grieved an immediate family member live before this year.… Read more

  • 2020

    December 13, 2020 by

    Let me start my first personal blog post by telling you how rough 2020 has been for me just like how it has been for many people all over the world. I’ve dealt with losing my job, losing friends and losing a very importantly family member. It’s sad to know that i’m not the only… Read more

  • Changing The Tone Of My Website

    December 11, 2020 by

    Hey everyone, so for the past year i’ve just been blogging my poetry and i still want to every now and then but i also want to focus more on actual blog posts and short stories. Short stories so that i can work on and eventually perfect my fiction writing craft. So just giving you… Read more

  • Emma

    December 8, 2020 by

    I see the morning sky and i think of you at times when im lonely and to myself Memories come to my mind since it hasn’t been much time since you left to paradise And i cry because i miss you but also because i wish i was with you And ill be mourning forever… Read more

  • This Too Shall Pass

    October 31, 2020 by

    Put a brave face on And act like you’re strong Even though your lungs would rather scream a song That conveys all the emotions that sway And that leaves you feeling disarrayed Pray that there in fact will be better days And all this stress will soon wash away And once be a memory of… Read more

  • Like A Drug

    October 31, 2020 by

    You’re like a drug Graceful like a dove Grateful for your love Addictive to the T But still you’re good for me Dont know if it will last And even if it doesn’t its nice to just bask In the feeling of us I hope its not just lust To let things flow is hard… Read more

  • Haunted

    October 31, 2020 by

    Im haunted by my thoughts of you I have no idea what im supposed to do My memories get vivid and it dilutes me to Negative thinking and depressive moods I know that everything is alright But the flashbacks get vivid especially at night I know its just my mind But i wish i knew… Read more

  • Message to my followers!

    October 21, 2020 by

    Hi! Its me nocturnalxo and im going to let you guys know that this website isnt staying up forever. I plan to close it around December after a year is up. I plan on writing a book that includes poetry and fiction one day hopefully soon! So to keep up with my writings i think… Read more

  • If only

    October 20, 2020 by

    If only i was a healer who could magically heal with my hands Id take away all your pain Id even have you get up and dance If only i was an angel who could have told you it was coming I would have told you and id make sure it wouldnt become your shortcoming… Read more

  • Falls on me

    October 19, 2020 by

    It all falls on me Just how you said it wouldnt be Even tho its not entirely It still all falls on me Even though you may catch a thing or two At the end all of that residue Falls to my emotions and my mental It all falls on me –@nocturnalxo

  • Unconditional Love

    October 4, 2020 by

    From your strongest to your weakest Ive seen you when you hit your peak and I dont love you any less For the time you were down Thats why i know now That i know love From its smiles to its frowns my love for you never broke in two And even on the days… Read more

  • Distractions

    October 2, 2020 by

    Distractions Truth is i don’t feel well Sleeping in your bed at night gives me chills Where are you? Will you ever wake up? I wish i could hug you and tell you to not let up When we spoke on the phone you opened your eyes As if my voice brought you back Much… Read more

  • An Ode To My Great Aunt

    September 29, 2020 by

    Its all hitting me at once If i knew that was the last time i was going to see you I would have hugged you harder and reassured my love had only gotten stronger Even when the disease in your brain took my person away I never forgot that shred of you that still remained,… Read more

  • Loveeeeee Poem

    September 29, 2020 by

    It felt good Just to be free To light trees And inhale under the covers until the clock hit 3 A sweet escape How deep the ties were made Traveling a total of 6 hours to much dismay But i dont care about what the people say When im around you all my fears tend… Read more

  • Animosity

    September 29, 2020 by

    The animosity Is slowly haunting me Went from super close to you barely talking to me Was it jealousy? Or even envy? That built a wedge between you and me? I dont pretend to be The picture perfect heavenly Girl next door like you may be But the animosity Feels like its haunting me Was… Read more

  • 20s Bluez

    September 7, 2020 by

    Floating away drifting in space Where is my place in this world Thrown into this brand new place Fast paced and it dont wait for nobody Left or right? Yes or no? Stop or go? It all seems real easy when you watch it on them shows Till you look in the mirror Ask yourself… Read more

  • Portal

    August 24, 2020 by

    The sky is like a portal Figures of Swans that glide through the sky because they are immortal Clouds that show you messages through symbols Another world indeed An astral dream to me Different colors shine for the sun set As the sun rests a deep blue sky takes over Different shades of blue happen… Read more

  • Insomnia

    August 12, 2020 by

    I aint rest I aint sleep Im functioning off 2 hours of sleep Here i am Now im not Im traveling through different realms in my mind The bags under my eyes look real nice to me The night sky makes me feel so free Sleeping during the day Awake during the night Nocturnal is… Read more

  • Shooting Stars Prologue

    July 28, 2020 by

    The stars sure did look bright that night. I don’t think I ever really came to the roof and just started stargazing until that night. I saw Vanessa put the bottle down in between us and lay her head on her purple pillow. “What a view.” She muttered with a smile on her face. I… Read more

  • Cry All The Time

    July 20, 2020 by

    She would cry Cry cry All the time Because you left her with 2 kids And left me with just my mind I would see the tears fall from her eyes all the time Because she had a fatherless son and daughter to raise Because you couldnt find the time so she raged She would… Read more

  • Vulnerable

    July 20, 2020 by

    I stay vulnerable And its noticeable I Wear my heart on my sleeve Have my laundry in the streets Dirty it seems Give it up for peace Since it seems to decrease The never ending shame that used to eat me So here i am Transparent as ever and I wouldnt want it any other… Read more

  • Sometimes

    July 20, 2020 by

    Sometimes Sometimes i wish you never put hands on me Sometimes i wish we were really meant to be Sometimes i wish things went another way Instead of the way it led us to today Sometimes i dont care and im fine Other times the PTSD blows my mind Sometimes im good and i feel… Read more

  • From Time

    July 20, 2020 by

    I dont know why it weighs on me heavy Time has passed but i still feel so sweaty When i think about you When i think about us I dont know about you But i wish there was still an “us” Deep down Reconciliation passes through my mind like a halt at a bus stop… Read more

  • Incognito

    July 9, 2020 by

    ‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬‪To not take another bite ‬‪Expecting something sweet ‬‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise.… Read more

  • Birds

    June 20, 2020 by

    Birds start chirping A tune that fits the flow of the earth turning A tune so angelic the angels are yearning To hear it every time they’re around The birds are chirping A tune that fits a nice summer breeze A tune that fits the picture of ease To hear it whenever we’re around trees… Read more

  • Pink Cloudz

    June 20, 2020 by

    Poetic rhymes to pass the time Passion flows as the record beholds Symphonies that speak to me My inspiration singing through The muse to it all is you Pink clouds Share a picture about Love The one we all desire The one that takes us higher The image of you painted in the sky A… Read more

  • Sky

    June 20, 2020 by

    Sky is hypnotic The dreams felt erotic Took a sip of that tonic Now im floating in the ocean Sky is so blue Still i look back and all i think about is you Your figure in the clouds This obsession is wearing me out Abstract dreams Believe in the realm of fantasies The sky… Read more

  • Tupac Amaru Shakur

    June 16, 2020 by

    Since a child i’ve looked up to you your essence of charisma is what made me fall in love too Although taboo and a little out of the ordinary Your songs would help guide me, it is still something very extraordinary Your words would show me to much wisdom at such a young age You… Read more

  • Shallow

    June 11, 2020 by

    When the pool of water doesn’t reach certain depths We aren’t able to get deep it works like that in life Shallow streams that play make believe Illusions of depth makes you drown in dreams Wave after wave Graves that we’ve paved Conclaves that just sway In the deepest part of the ocean Where my… Read more

  • Stagnant

    June 11, 2020 by

    When the world stops And our lives are put to a halt We look around in hopes that quality time tops The excessive distraught our life has taken in Unemployment line gets longer And the debts get stronger Until we find a way to maintain Some cope with drugs Some sustain with love Until reality… Read more

  • Psychosis

    June 11, 2020 by

    Head pounding Heart racing It feels like This isnt real. Shadows dancing Voices making me feel like i’ve made a deal Like the air has been laced And my hand is to my heart im feeling the bass Its Beating like drums that wont stop Dissociation has taken over again and this time it brought… Read more

  • Like a Cat

    May 23, 2020 by

    Nocturnal like a cat Im fertile with my raps A turtle is how i move Slow and steady with the groove Still i know that i cant take too long Life waits for nobody Same old song But opportunity knocks on my door I just have to stack up at the book store Study study… Read more

  • Heritage

    May 18, 2020 by

    My ancestors were slaves Not all but I bet you I can name their names In a dream For that is when they speak to me First stop Santo Domingo Christopher Columbus you are so evil 500 year curse is lifted yet the after-effects still feel lethal Why is that? Why do I feel their… Read more

  • Dear God

    May 17, 2020 by

    Dear God, I love you more than anything Without you everything would be meaningless I know you hearing and you seeing this I Apologize on behalf of humanity They dont see all you do behind the scenes But i do And i feel you And i know you And i love you. So i thank… Read more

  • I

    May 13, 2020 by

    I love myself enough To know when enough is enough I love myself so much That i cant deal with the same old tired stuff I love myself enough to know That i am worth much more than heartbreak and scorn I love myself enough to leave situations that always end up leaving me torn… Read more

  • Runnin

    May 4, 2020 by

    Gotta catch my breath Dont make the wrong step The path to your destiny awaits But first you gotta stop runnin, take a break. When you look in the mirror Do you like what you see or would you rather pull a trigger? Look into your eyes Are you really as bad as you depict… Read more

  • Daydream

    April 24, 2020 by

    Daydream it seems to me im lost in this life scheme Ive taken it to the extreme In the everyday mundane Day dream life never ends up how it may seem like how it ends in the movies Its all part of the game Trial after trial but my daydream consists of fairytales and bridals… Read more

  • ScapeGOAT

    April 6, 2020 by

    Don’t worry about me Worry about you I been sleeping good but its the guilt that left me shook As if i influenced everyone around me I doubt it so don’t you dare doubt me As if I’m the evil… As if I’m the person who been primeval..? As if i havent been on a… Read more

  • Done Dirty

    April 6, 2020 by

    The wind in the air is left sturdy Breezing through lies that they buried Only those eyes know the truth Dont ever let them lie to you Water blood dirt fire Doesnt matter they all get higher From watching you rise and fall The best thing you can do is call The last bit of… Read more

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